Prayer Changes Things
"There is power in the Name of Jesus, to break ever chain, to break ever chain." Each morning when I prepare to leave my apartment, I start the day by listening to Gospel music. I then enter into my car with even more Gospel music. I have found comfort and solace in being able to just Praise God through music.
Don't allow what I am about to tell you happen to you.
Over the past five weeks, my spirit has been under attack. I have been on defensive mode at every turn. I am seeking to ensure that I cover my tracks and not be taken under by the hardships of work. Well it all came tumbling down. I allowed my flesh to win which caused me to have an emotional outburst. I allowed stress, not dealing with people in a professional manner, cloud my judgment, and have me step out of character. I was and have been so frustrated that before I could reel it back in, it was out my mouth, and into the laps of my direct report. It was one of the most unprofessional moments I have had to date, and it just was not the way in which I wish to handle things.....yet it happened. I have to take full ownership of it, and recognize that I cannot allow the flesh to win. I was listening to my former Pastor from back home, and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I paraphrase him, but he said, "you need to recognize that Faith is about your spirit and your emotions are about your flesh." " Faith does not care about your emotional self." " You must be able to take control and not allow your emotions to control you." After hearing that on Sunday, it was like, man I really messed up this time. I really should have just taken a step back and got myself in order. I will be rectifying this situation when my direct report comes back to work, but it showed me just how much I need to stay in prayer and not allow the ways of this world to consume me.
I share this with you because I need God fearing people to pray for my sanity. I do not know if being away from home has finally gotten to me, or if God is trying to tell me something. I do know that correction is in order. I felt this way one another time, and during that time God was releasing from an environment that no longer added value to me or me adding value to it. Therefore, I seek to have God order my steps in His word. As He guides me, I share with you. Do not be dismayed and do not allow the flesh to be victorious. We continue to be challenged on every turn, and yet we must understand that God has the final say.
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