TC's Testimony, Today
Today, I received revelation that I cannot go higher until I let go of the things that weigh me down. That statement alone was not the true revelation. See, before today I assumed the 'weights' were things like; drinking, smoking, cheating, etc. The true revelation is that the 'weights' in my life are friendships/relationships.
I know that I am a real friend to those who I call friend. I am a "Ride Or Die" type of Chic. If I say I'm with you, you can believe that I am with you. Unfortunately, I sometimes expect the same from others, not realizing their inability to give me what I give to them.
Please allow me to vent for a moment...
I'm tired of being everything to everybody, whenever and wherever needed. I'm sick and tired of being your ear when your life is falling apart. I cannot take another session of you expressing and me listening, and when it's my turn you don't have time. When you mourn, when you hurt, when you're upset, when you need an outlet, when you need encouragement, when you need inspiration, when you need a friend, there's always ME! I give and you take. You give when you're ready, when it fits into your busy schedule. You give when it's convenient for you. In the meantime and in between time, what about ME? I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. If I don't call, we don't talk. When I'm in need where are you? When I need a push, when I need a pat on the back, when I need to be told the truth, where did you run off to? (heavy sigh) Yet, I am who I am! A good friend. A Sho Nuff "Ride Or Die Chic". I won't turn my back on you. I am the same, I don't change with circumstances. But, I am taking myself out of your pocket, not to be used at your leisure any longer. I am still a friend. A friend with boundaries, so I don't have to revisit this place again. I will be good to you, even if it doesn't feel like you are being good to me. Maybe I owe this next level to you. Untying myself from you is causing me to rise higher than ever before. Yes, thank you my friend, for giving what you could when you could. I don't need a long handle spoon to handle you with. I'll just handle you!
Whew....thanks for letting me get that off my chest. I feel so much better!
Maybe some of you feel this way? Maybe some of you now realize you cause others to feel this way? I'm not sure what your testimony is, but this is my testimony today. I could address this to one particular person, or to many, but it simply goes out to, The Burden Of Friendship.
That's it, that's all!
TC!
p.s. An unhealthy relationship does not only exist when there is sex and intimacy involved. If another person seldom adds to your life, but constantly takes, that's not a very healthy relationship. You were not meant to be a door mat. Get up, dust yourself off, hold your head up high, and experience your freedom.